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Praise the Lord – God is so good! I am just thankful to Him for all things! I praise Him for all things – not some but all things.

I praise Him for the things seen and unseen – I just praise the Lord! God is so good! I am determined to hold out for His answers and His way! Praise His name!  

Let me give you my testimony. . .  

If you read any of my blogs – you know that I have situations with my son that are just so hard to deal with and with his behavior in school. School started on September 3 and on September 4 – the trouble started.  

He has a tutor for math and reading, he has a social worker and a therapist at school (two separate women) and of course there is his teacher. I am on the phone with the school all the time; I still wince when I see the school phone number on my phone. We were getting told by all these wonderful people that our son needs to be on medication and I was beginning to believe them.  

We have tried everything and after talking to his math tutor who has been with him since kindergarten – she was just so negative ….sorry but she was. As if my son is NOT capable of being able to behave. I take all this to heart – our children are their environment so as his mother who do I blame more than him – ME!! I hear about other people and their children – never hearing anything negative about their kids – and thinking something is wrong with me – I am learning that most of them are just liars! LOL  

Well yesterday, I gave into it. I called the doctor’s office and made an appointment for Jonathan. Funny thing – when the appointment taker asked the reason for the appointment, she scheduled him for a yearly physical instead of a consultation because he was due for one – so that is good and should have told me there.  

After I got off the phone - I started talking to the Lord about my son and just showing me what to do because everyone was saying how he needs to be on meds. I started reading and hearing some positive stories about the meds and just wanting to feel better but my spirit just did not feel good about it. My sister went on in an email about not putting him on meds – making me feel bad about all that I was thinking about doing.  

I started replaying Tuesday night in my head - we (Merv and I) were talking to Jonathan about his behavior – once again. I was prompted to ask him – what did he want more than anything in the world…I was expecting a different answer than I got.  He said he wanted a PSP – hummmm…..really? I was actually expecting to hear – see my dad or go on vacation or something like that…but I guess 8 year old boys will be 8 year old boys.  

Well as he was sitting there – I pulled up the PSP (Play Station Portable game system – just in case u do not know what it was) and there was one that just came out that day – a newer version – I started talking about how ‘sweet’ it was and asked him what he thought – he was loving it.  

I asked him have I ever lied to him – and he said no – I told him if he would bring me good days – he could have it for his birthday. Now we have tried this before and it did not work – with other things – as he would say okay and then come home the next day with a bad behavior report – so in my mind I think this is just going to be the same old ways. 

I am driving home and just been speaking to the Lord about my son – just seeking God for direction – not once thinking things were going to change – thinking the answer was in the meds even though my spirit is just not confirming it – just ignoring that and trying to tell myself this is better. I even went as far as to say that he is adopted and I just do not know about his birth family. Telling me there is a lot of adoption families who find themselves in these shoes . . . BUT GOD!!  

I pick up my son – he is smiling but he is always smiling as he was just hanging out with his best friend. He gets in the car and does not immediately telling me how his day is. So I breathed deep and ask the dreaded question – “How was your day?” I was expecting to hear – Good as that is the answer I ALWAYS get even on the worse day. So when I hear good – I say oh really – you got a paper saying so – I hear YES – which I did not expect to hear – normally I hear – she did not write one for me. Well the next thing – I get a paper that says He had a good day except something happened at recess! This is what she wrote.  

Before I even ask about recess – I start telling him how proud I am – I make the biggest fuss over him and just start being so happy – praising God and him all in one breathe. He is in the back seat GRINNING from ear to ear. All evening, I was so excited – I jumped up and down – high fiving him – making a big fuss – asked him where he wanted to go to dinner and just all the time telling him how proud I was – because I am.  

I am just so excited as the school’s therapist and social worker almost had me believing he needs medication…that he really can not help not being focused in class….BUT GOD!! I just said to the Lord – I need to see some sign that we are on the right path – something to direct me in what to do with him as I was getting frustrated and to be honest did not believe he would come home with an excellent day yesterday. Just really acting like this was a defeat but all along praying to God to bless this entire situation because I was just so ‘lost’ in what to do. I know I was not alone as Merv kept saying – I do not understand this. 

Well God answered – not only did Jonathan behave – but when his ‘cut-up’ buddy saw he was not going to cut up and tried to get him to cut up by threatening him with bodily damage – Jonathan stood his ground and behaved – walking away from the boy – which caused the boy to try and hit Jonathan – but because the teacher’s aide saw what happened – Jonathan did not get in trouble but the young boy did. (Keep Romeo in prayer - this little boy has a lot of things going on inside as he acts just as Jonathan does in school) I am so proud of Jonathan and so thankful to the Lord for blessing me with such an awesome witness to His answering of prayer.  

Of course we are all on go in our house and just so excited…God is answering prayers and He is showing us to keep holding onto His words and not our own thoughts. One more thing before I go….LOL  

Merv went to the doctor’s!!! PRAISE THE LORD! I have been trying to get Merv to go to the doctor’s for his legs, snoring and breathing since I have met him – all along he refused to go…so I stopped asking and started praying….yet again God answered prayer – I made the appointment and just prayed he went – HE DID!!! Of course it was not news he wanted to hear BUT it was a motivation to him and for that I am thankful to the Lord! Please keep him in prayer as he is moving forward to a healthier living lifestyle - We have the victory!! 

I am just so thankful to the Lord for blessing my family and for giving me such a wonderful week in Him….I thank God for it and I am so grateful that I can not even begin to explain the joy in my heart except that it is what I would call – unspeakable joy – Hallelujah just does not even come close to what I feel and this is the highest praise!  

God is so good and so mindful of us and I am so thankful that He just does what He does by being God – and so eternally grateful for the scales falling away from my eyes so that I can see Him and His beauty in my life!  

God bless and please keep my family in prayer as I will do the same for you! God is so good to us!!
 
 
Praise the Lord! What a beautiful day today is – it does not matter what is going on outside as it is what is inside of us that makes the day beautiful! I feel beautiful along with being beautiful – so all is well in my soul today!  

I was blessed yesterday to talk with a sweet sister of mine – Sister Antonia (my Brooklyn sister!) and during our conversation – we prayed together and the power of the Lord moved when my sister was praying….got off the phone with her and was still praising God – woke up this morning and still praising God! He is so awesome to us and if we just take the time to smile in Him – what a blessing that is.  

I have been trying to read as much as I can of the word of the Lord – not study but just read it – as you would a book. I do not mean studying the word, yes I do that but I mean just reading the word. I did not realize how much I remember just from reading that – reading not for completion, understanding or knowledge but just enjoyment in the Lord!  

Yes – there is enjoyment in the word of the Lord. I started out reading Esther and that is so interesting – I ended up doing the Esther Bible Study (posted in the forum as Becoming a Woman God Can Use) and it has been such an eye opener. I have received so much insight into myself and thankful for that more than I ever was before. Yet just reading the word has enlightened my walk. 

Last night I read the book of I Timothy and just in reading it – WOW – what I another aspect of that – the good thing is that we are doing I Timothy in the Daily Bible Reading group and man let me tell you – the questions are so intriguing to me! I am loving it – sure we are supposed to be discussing it – but no one is – which is fine with me – yet I am loving the learning that I am getting from typing up the questions and reading the word and then thinking on the questions that are asked! God is good… 

I was thinking about that last night during the Women Helping Women Fellowship – as I was talking about surrounding ourselves with the Lord all the time. I thank the Lord for the time I get to spend talking with my sisters – it strengthens and reinforces my walk with the Lord. I think about my life and how much I strive to surround myself with things of Him and yet I have issues, situations, trials and tribulations – but it blesses me so!  

I started thinking about how blessed I really am. It does not matter if no one ever reads my writings, if no one ever comes to WL4J Encouragement Hour, listens to our future radio broadcast or even acknowledges that they like me – all that I do I  do for Jesus. As I was talking last night – the Lord yet again reminded me that extra blessing is I have someone to talk to as before I just talked to Him. Not that it is a bad thing, but He sends who He wants to send.  

I thank God for not getting discouraged when people do not follow through with the commitments they made to the ministry work – to other sisters – all I have to do is what God has called me to do! How awesome is that? God is so good and worthy to be praise! I am loving life. 

On my way to work today – I said to the Lord to surround me with a protective hedge that keeps all the negative thoughts out (hey Sister Shelia – thought I would try that today too) and just focus solely on Him, the goodness of Jesus and just letting Him reside in my entire being today. I have a habit of allowing others to affect my mood – but today – it is not going to happen. I paid bills and did not get upset – asked God to give me a mindset today to be about Him and letting His will be the guide for me!  

As my dear sister was praying yesterday, the Lord was speaking through her as a reminder to me – we do not have to put up with the mess – we are blessed to bind things up and call on the blessing of the Lord for our lives. We are children of the MOST HIGH GOD ~ why do we hold our heads down? I enjoy talking and writing about the Lord – it brings me joy.  

My husband always asks me how different things are going with WL4J – he is a big supporter and I thank God for him…and on Wednesday there were no live listeners to the Encouragement Hour BUT I had such an awesome time – just speaking what the Lord gave me and I know that it was just meant for me to reflect on the Lord! God is so awesome and for that I am so grateful! I love my life – really and truly – when I stop and look at it – I love my life. Sure just like anyone else I have moments when I look and go “What the heck?” but I still love my life. 

I am trying something different with my son today – I am taking one day at a time – we are working on one day at a time. He finally started taking test without rushing but actually taking his time to do the test!! Praise the Lord!! Well he got one of them back and he got a D and he was so upset – but mama made a huge deal about him taking his time and yes he got a D but it is going to help us to work on what he needs to improve. He told me he took his math test that day and took his time too and he was ‘concerned’ that he failed it too…I told him that there is no failure in God and if he even got an F – that is okay for now we know what areas he needs help in!  

He sounded so much more confident this morning and though he may not come home with a 100% great day – I know that he started on the good foot and that is better than most days!!  

Last night I went to the Open House for his reading program and they gave away free books – he could pick any book from the book fair and get a free book under $5.00. As I waited for him to get it, the Lord said to let him get the poster he wanted for his room. So I did…but check this out… (God is so good) 

When we got home – I told him to put the poster in my room on my bed. He looked at me all upset. I asked him was he upset – after much probing – he finally answered me – and said yes. I asked him why – he said cause he wanted it in his room on his wall. I took the poster and held it up in front of me. As I held it – I told him that what he was feeling was how I felt when I saw him. I told him that when I look at him – I see this awesome kid – that is standing before me but I just can’t get it. I told him (again) how much I know he is an awesome kid and if he could give me a Fantastic Friday – I would be so grateful that he can have the poster hanging in his room that same day! I went on more explaining how I know he can do it and how great he really is. I asked him what he thought of himself, and in a nutshell – he has labeled himself as a bad kid – despite all I have done not to do that with him – he still has done so. (Therapist said that is normal) Yet, I started telling him how he has made these decisions – how God has created him for greatness in Jesus and all he has to do is reach for it and try!  

He is flunking everything except Spelling! He does not even have to study spelling and gets a B – we worked on the words for this week and I am confident that he will bring home an A on his spelling test. Yet everything else – he is flunking! We talked about that and how maintaining good behavior in the class helps him to focus on the tasks at hand. I know that he can do it and how great he is in spelling and with some practice and dedication – he can make honor roll! I am thankful for the outlook Jesus has renewed in me with my son. 

I thank God for the understanding that this is going to take time and we are going to take one day at a time with him! I thank God for the clarification. I was getting tired of hearing about how he is not doing this in class and not doing that in class – that I did not go see his teacher last night – she was there – I choose not to do so. Nothing against her – but I thought to myself – I am not going to listen to the negative about my son any more – sure I will correct it but I am not going to listen to that anymore, see what they are seeing is the old Jonathan – there is a new Jonathan emerging and I am going to focus on getting the new Jonathan through each day – these teachers do care but they do not care like I care.  

I trust Jesus – not the teacher or even Jonathan – Jesus said He will fix it – so I am going as if it is already fixed. Merv and I are praying that we find what works with him – that God blesses us with the wisdom to help him and that he finally sees what his worth is!  

It is a good day! AMEN!