Praise the Lord for this day! WOW!!! I am in such awe of Jesus right now! The Lord is truly awesome and moving in His way! I am so shocked by outpour of emails…I tell you it was just a blessing to receive all the responses that I did. Some people still think I am nuts telling me how the Lord did not tell me to depend on my husband to handle things, some people were saying they did not believe it but if God says it, what can they say. Some sisters said the complete opposite that they too are doing what we are doing because they are like me. LOL A sister who has been where I am, emailed me and said the reason they have what they have is because the Lord told her the same thing and in listening to Him, they are better off financially, which is what I needed to hear too. Some sisters had concern for my hubby and my openness and I thought that was awesome too. Yet some sisters who are single are looking at marriage through a different set of eyes. I am sure that everyone who read the last two days came away with one thought or another – whether against what I was saying or for what I was saying but one thing is for sure…no one who read – did not agree with me in the fact that God is still in control.
It amazes me every single day when I sit down to write what the Lord is saying to me as I write, the lessons that I am learning about myself and the lessons that I am learning in Jesus. It is something how He opens doors for me just because I am being honest with Him and with myself. Sure I am putting this out for the entire world to see as it is not just for the sisters at WL4J social community or those that get it via email but with the blessings of my hubby, it is also located in two spots on the internet. Sometimes I question what the Lord is doing in this manner, but then I get an email from a sister that I did not sent it to, but they read via the blogger or weebly site and it is always encouraging to them, so I know all things for the Lord and in Him all things come together.
The enemy will try to trip me up because I do what I do, and as my dear sister in Christ reminded me that we have to be careful of what we release, which is so true in more ways than one, it is something how the Lord will direct and how He will tell me what to say and how far to go. For my sisters that do not know me, know that I can be even more real than this…and sometimes I am depending on the circumstances. I am blessed and thankful that God has blessed me as He does in my life. I love to praise the Lord and I love to just be who I am.
There was a time in my life that not only did I not know who I was, I did not like who I thought I was or who I saw in the mirror. I did not want to know anyone and I truly did not care for who I was at all. I did all kinds of things to make those around me suffer along with trying to hurt those that loved me just because I did not love who I was. It was a downward spiral in my life, but three years ago the Lord changed me. He showed me a glimpse of who I could be in Him and I loved that glimpse of the future Sister Alissa Lynne.
He showed me a woman full of compassion, love, faith, trust, understanding, temperance, self-control, and just a true woman of God. You know like those mothers that we see or sisters that we see that seem to love the Lord with all they have, well that was who He said I could be in Him. He said that He could make me into someone that I would not even recognize and I could be happy for all eternity in Jesus! It is something, just when I thought I had given up on life, the Lord stepped right in and showed me who I was in Him. He is working on me and one day I will be that woman He showed me.
I know you have heard me or have read me say that I know what it is like to lose my mind, I mean lose it – not know who you are – not know what you are doing and what you are saying. I have had to deal with that in my life and it is something how the Lord keeps reminding me how I was there. It is with our minds that we serve the Lord for we are what we think, so in all that we do, we should have our minds on Jesus. I was saved when I lost my mind, I had come to walk with the Lord in July of 2005 and I lost my mind in Dec of 2005 – yet the Lord spoke to me still during that time as He knew that He did not want me to go out there in that manner. He knew that I had forgotten who He was to me and how He would keep me. He knew me even though I did not know myself.
As I look over the last few days and what I was going through, I know that it was because I gave God so much praise on Sunday at church, that the enemy had to come at me with such force to rock my entire concept of who I was. You have to understand as I was writing the blog for the 17th – the one entitled “Telling it like it is…keeping it real”, I was in such pain and agony even though I knew what was right, as I sit here now and think it over, I could feel his presence all around me and I am talking about the enemy. I knew to fight it but I was tired of fighting and though I did not give into it, I did not fight against it like I normally do. Yet I wrote, as for me I have to write to keep my mind so I wrote what I was feeling. I had my husband send it out via email and even post it a couple places because I felt a certain urge to do it before I changed my mind. It was festering inside of me for so long that even when I read it now, I can read the frustration and the pain of what I was feeling at that time. Yet, the Lord blessed – even in our pain and hurt – the Lord will use that to glorify Him AND comfort us.
In sending that email – people were praying for me, and that brought unity in the body of Christ! Isn’t that what the word says to do…James 5:16 Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.
I am telling you my sisters and brothers, I could feel the prayers going up and I could feel the change in me as they went up. Yet it was the email from my dear sister telling me that I was nuts that really sealed it all in for me. I love it! She was the only one speaking what others were thinking….yet since some of you do not know me on the same level as she does and some of you are single and did not want to speak on things of marriage since you are single (which I do respect), she came straight out and told me how she felt.
It was her directness that really started to change me – just her open honesty with me. She said it because she loved me and being another Alpha female, did not want to see me make a mistake I might regret. Yet it was in her honesty that I got even more confirmation that I had to not only write the Honesty Today writings BUT also do what God has told me to do. Her honesty started me to explain why I was doing it and the more I wrote to her the more the Lord spoke to me in scripture and in truth. See it is true – ALL THINGS work out to the good of them that are the called according to His purpose. We all have something that we are going to go through, going through, or been through that the Lord worked it all out for His glory.
On Monday, I thought I was going to be miserable all week long or at least until Thursday. (LOL Friday is payday!! LOL) Yet God strengthened me by having just one sister come forth with questioning my motives. It strengthened me to answer her – it strengthened me to stand. It also showed me to know what God has told me to do and to stick with it no matter what others say to me or suggest to me. It is great to have people you can talk to and it is great to be able to release things via writing or any other means but the best of all is to do it in Jesus. It was because I have a relationship with Him that I am free in Him.
I wonder how many sisters reading this are still very much in bondage in most of their lives, or in major areas of their lives. I wonder how many of us are truly allowing the Lord to move us out of our comfort zone and into a place of total freedom in Him. When I was questioned about where I stood, I had to move outside of my comfort zone, I had to answer something that I thought I was not ready to answer yet the Lord changed me in that moment because I stepped out of my comfort zone and into who He wants me to be. How awesome is that!
So today, I have a question for each of us to think about and truly let it sink in and let us take it to God if it is a question that you are uncomfortable with or not sure of…Are you living in a comfort zone in your life that is hindering your walk with the Lord right now? See we all have comfort zones and some are not meant to be gone yet, as the Lord wants us to be there for this time, but some comfort zones need to be broken and walked out of – yet we maybe refusing to walk out of it.
See my comfort zone issue was giving God praises in the physical sense in front of others, I was afraid of praising Him with all that I have. Well He took me out of there a few Sundays ago, never to return. He showed me yet another comfort zone in my life with the finances and though I thought I was okay with it, He showed me that I was not really okay with it, and took me out of that comfort zone. Now your comfort zone may not be like mine, your situations are not like mine either but maybe God has given you a task to do that you do not want to do, that you are not comfortable doing, or you do not think you are qualified to do, yet you feel like you are stuck…well at least for me…when I feel stuck – I am! I am stuck in a comfort zone that I do not want to get out of.
So today my sisters…look within yourself….talk to the Lord…allow Him to show you where you are stuck at and not wanting to let go of your comfort zone and move to the Lord in seeking the direction to get out of it. It is when we are out of our comfort zone are we truly free in Jesus! I feel so good my sisters – so good to be where I am today. Monday was dark…it was truly dark….but the Lord laid the work for my healing to begin and I started to enjoy my evening with my hubby all because I started to move outside of my comfort zone. We (Minister Merv and I) were working on a song…LOL….okay he got the motivation to write a song, and I tweaked two phrases in the song. LOL Yet it was a beautiful time together that I know that if I had not started to move outside of my comfort zone we would not have had that beautiful time together. We have to realize that sometimes we are blocking blessings by holding onto our comfort zones too long!
Until tomorrow,
I love you all – thank you so much for your prayers and encouragement for I truly am grateful to the Lord and may all of you continue to move forward in Jesus for He is truly blessing us right now!
Love your sister in Christ,
Sister Alissa Lynne
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