Praise the Lord! Yesterday I was talking via email to a few sisters and I just wanted to remind everyone today to be positive. We have to be positive regardless of what is being shown to us at that moment. So many times we allow the negativity of others to change our focus, or even the negativity of ourselves changes our focus.
We are our environment, this is a proven factor, so if we are our environment, then let us make our environment that of peace, joy, love and all things positive, and to do that is to surround ourselves with Jesus. Life is too short to go around wondering about this or that…life is too short to think of the things that are not of Jesus.
Come on…the song goes…when I think of the goodness of Jesus and all that He has done for me…my heart cries out Hallelujah…thank God for saving me. Where is your praise today? Where is your love today? Let us start this day and every day with the love of Jesus in our hearts and on our minds. Ignore the negative and live in the positive.
Which in turn means…ignore the enemy and seek to live in Jesus!
My honesty for today is…I fight negative spirits upon me every single day. As a former depression girl….I have to fight off those spirits daily, yet the Lord has placed a spirit of praise in my heart for Him and to know that it is in Him that I receive my strength. I am thankful today to be able to sit here and say that God is keeping me and that despite what the enemy is trying to do by keeping my mind on things that are not of Jesus…Jesus is right there telling me to sing praises, read His word and to surround myself with things of Him to keep me in my right mind.
Today is a day of blessings – stand in the knowledge of knowing that Jesus is there for you and that today is a day of blessings.
Love you all,
Love in Jesus – Your sister in Christ,
Sister Alissa Lynne
Galatians 6:7-10 7Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. 8For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting. 9And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. 10As we have therefore opportunity, let us do good unto all men, especially unto them who are of the household of faith.
Ecclesiastes 3:1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
Praise the Lord! These scriptures came to me as I was thinking of what I was going to write today in my honesty writings. Two topics came to me that I would like to write about today.
First is the fact that we all go through a time when we have to deal with things. As I was writing to my dear sister in Christ this morning, I have been instructed by the Lord to turn all my finances over to my hubby. I have given up my MAC card and checkbook to him. I did this a few weeks ago, only to end up with them back in my hands. This is a dangerous thing for me to do. I have no concept of not spending; I will spend until it is gone, sometimes even when it is not even there. I am not proud of it, nor am I trying to boast about it.
The Lord has blessed me to get a word on Monday from the Prophet that was speaking on being good stewards over what the Lord gives us. I have a great job that pays very well, and yet I can not manage to buy myself a pair of tennis shoes. NOW let me say this, when I shop I am not shopping for just me. I will get things for the house that we need, go over board on grocery shopping and do not go to the clothing store. I am not big on clothing but technology. I had been in bankruptcy and in my defence, I did not put myself there…my ex did. Yet, I was still trying to play catch up coming out of it. Yet, I was not disciplined with it. I listened to the word going forth from the Prophet and heard the Lord screaming to me to get it together.
I woke up the next morning with the Lord telling me to give my hubby my card – just tell him that he needs to have it and just give it to him. I expected a lot of questions from him but the Lord had already prepared him for this. I have been wrestling with it for awhile now and though I did in the beginning, man my flesh was kicking telling me that I was fine before Merv; I will be fine with Merv. LOL But when the Prophet started talking about tithing, being a good steward of things God has blessed us with already and how God will bless us in our obedience…I knew he was talking to me. It was a much needed reminder. So on Tuesday morning, I woke up and was obedient to the Lord and gave it over to my husband.
Do not get me wrong…man it was HARD to ask for gas money this morning from my hubby and to hear him ask me if he could trust me with the MAC Card…at first I was offended, but the Holy Spirit said to me – you do not even trust yourself…why are you shocked he said that. So I took the lovely $40.00 cash and went to fill up my car. It was weird but something I have to get used to doing. I have never given up control of my paycheck to anyone. From the very first day I got a pay check, I have been in charge of it, so this weird. I am dead serious when I say pray for me in this area for the enemy is beating me up with this one yet I am standing on the promises of God that all things will work out for my good according to His purpose.
On my way to work this morning, I was listening to Galatians on my ride in and Galatians Chapter 6 – verse 9 “And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.” jumped out at me. It really calmed my very spirit. How can I expect to reap good things if I do not do what the Lord has required me to do? How can I expect the windows of Heaven to open up and pour out on me, if I do not listen to what the Lord tells me to do? I grew up with my mom always telling me that for every thing there is a seasons and every season in the timing of God. Well this season is for me to learn to let go of the finances and turn over my trust and faith in the Lord by allowing my husband to handle things. Yes I said allowing…that word works for me and helps me to let go. Yes it is a controlling word, but right now it is the best I can do. LOL
The second thing that I have really noticed more lately is crying. I had a hysterectomy back in 2004 and man, let me tell you…doctors do not tell you everything, yet I am learning …they do not know everything either. I had to laugh at myself last night as I was watching the movie called “Honey” it has Jessica Alba and Mekhi Phifer in it. It is about a young woman’s dream to be a dancer. It is an okay movie and since I had already watched the CSI Miami, Law & Order CI, & Law & Order SVU that was on, I figured I would watch this movie. Well at the end, her dreams come true and the one young boy, played by Romeo, turned his life around by being part of her production to build a dancer center. Well why was I crying at the end? LOL HORMONES!!!
I have found two things to be true; I am more emotional now since my hysterectomy and since coming to the Lord. Things affect me so much more differently. I still have those ugly mood swings, hot flashes, and crying fits but yet the Lord is helping me get over that too. I used to take pills for it until they started causing reactions in me due to my other meds, so now I just wing it. Yet I am not ashamed of it. I have been better at controlling the mood swings by singing praises to the Lord and praying – some days the prayers are much stronger than others. LOL I have learned more about myself. I went for so long in my life not allowing myself to show any emotions, that at first these waves of emotions overtook me to the point of being scared to even open my mouth. Well that is just the enemy trying to mess with me, so now I am learning to deal with all my emotions and truly allowing the Lord to mold me into what He wants me to be.
For all of those that read this and know the word of prayer, please continue to pray for me that God’s will be done in my life, that the stubborn side of me releases all that needs to be release and that I continue to strive to live my life according to the word of God!
Praise the Lord! We are truly blessed people in the Lord. I received an email today on the blog of G. Craige Lewis – it was titled “Vote Black?”. It was insightful and though many African Americans and Christians are NOT going to agree with him, I do! He spoke on how it is our right to vote during this election and just because we are black does not mean we have to vote for the black candidate. If you have not checked out the blog, please do, it is very interesting read. Let me say this, if you have never read his writings please know that he is very direct. He does not use foul language but his manner is to the point and sorry but it is not sugar coated or show a lot of LOVE but most times he is right on point! http://gcraige.blogspot.com/2008/10/vote-black.html
Yet as I read his blog, I did a sigh of relief. I was able to relate to what he was saying. I had for several weeks been going back and forth in my mind about what I was going to do with this upcoming election. I was not in turmoil, but at a point of how do I let people know where I stand. There are plenty of people in my family who are politically active, so how do I express to them the stance that I am taking on this election. I grew up believing and told to vote for so many went through hell and some even died so that I could vote. Yet as the minister pointed out, they went through that so that I have the RIGHT to choose whether or not I should vote. Now let us not fool ourselves, plenty of black and white people are voting this year because of the ‘magnitude” of the vote. We have for the first time in history a black man on the ballot. We may very well have a black president whose ancestors helped build the house he is going to live in. AMEN – to me as a nation that is something, yet and still we are not as a nation where we need to be. I agree that we need to heal as a nation and to be totally honest I am not sure we are ready for a black president, there is still tons of racism going on in this world and the media is not helping any. Yet that is not what this blog is about today…do not get me started on what could happen if he is in office, but let me say about me. LOL
I look at this as an opportunity for those of us that know the Lord to spread the word of God to all those that we meet. We have two men running for office and I have received tons of email supporting and opposing both men. Yet when I look at both men…neither one of them represent who I am and who I represent no matter how much they scream out that they do. Obama is very clear in his standing…his thing is grace of Jesus, he uses that a lot. Yet what we do not see is how much he supports things that are truly against the Lord…come on now abortion and homosexuality is enough right there NOT to get my vote. He is a smooth talker which is what is needed to get into the government…that too is enough there NOT to get my vote. McCain is no better…he is old and out of touch as far as I am concerned, sure he is against abortion and homosexuality – yet what about his policies on the economy, schools, daycare and things of that sort that affect so many of us.
I have heard “lesser of two evils” yet since when did my Jesus say I have to accept the “lesser of two evils” – my Jesus said that I am to accept Him and that in Him I will have all that I need. I can not go to the polls with a clear mind and heart to vote for either of these men. It is a laughing joke with my hubby that I will write myself in but then again I am not qualified either. I know that I am the minority of the world, but I am not going to vote this year and it is MY CHOICE to not do so.
I have prayed about it so many times, as I was not sure which option to take and even said to the Lord…I will go to the polls and close my eyes and who every I select is whom I select. I did my research in the beginning before they even got to this point, you know when there was still a chance that a woman could be president, and even then I spoke loud and clear that NONE of the candidates were worthy of that position as far as I was concerned as a Christian wife, mother and child of God.
Yet this is my conviction and my thoughts, I am sure there are many who do not agree with me and to be honest – that is your conviction and your thoughts but my thought to all today is do not vote because of the color of one’s skin or what someone else tells you to do, vote because you feel the obligation and you support the person that you are voting for. Vote not for the lesser of two evils for even the enemy disguises himself in the beauty of things in life, but vote for the person the Lord has blessed you to know without a shadow of doubt who you should vote for. Do not be ashamed of whom you are if you decide not to vote or if you decide to vote; you are who you are because of Jesus.
As I am always saying….look at this entire situation and what is your relationship with the Lord built on? This is more important than any election because regardless of who is going into office, you will need Jesus to make it through. I know a lot of ministers and those in the Christian leadership or even someone you look up to is tell you to vote and do not waste this privilege, I am going to remind them that it is also a privilege to not vote.
So I am going to get it from my family and friends but this year - Sister Alissa Lynne is not voting as she can not do so with a clear mind and open heart....may the Lord's will be done in the United States and let all of us realize that it is about to begin....if you do not know the Lord as your personal Savior and running around scared, afraid and just not in His will...you still have time to get right before the Lord and come unto Him as He is calling us to do in these last and evil day. The signs are before us and it may or may not be in my life here on earth - but Jesus is coming back...ARE YOU READY???
Those of us that have listened to the Living Victorious show from Monday got a word that has been with me since then and I believe it is not going to leave me any time soon. The Prophet was talking about a change in the economy and a change with the people of God. What I got from it is this…we are going to have to make a choice of whom we are going to obey…are we truly obeying the Lord and doing what He wants us to do?
I really felt that message was for me…maybe no one but me. But I was going through some serious issues with giving over complete control of all things to the Lord. He wants control of it all – every single aspect of my life. As I finally started to let it go and made a huge and major step yesterday towards doing that, the Lord has been showing me things as to why I needed to get “my house in order”. One of them is this election, no I do not believe that Obama is the anti-Christ, but I do believe that he can start the ball rolling so to speak. He may start the beginning of the years of false peace and set the stage for the reign of the anti Christ…yet am I scared!! NO WAY….JESUS IS MY SAVIOR!! Yet as the Prophet reminded us in his words from the Lord…we must be prepared and we must be good stewards over the things God has given us. We are going to see a shift in things…people who are faithful to the Lord are going to be blessed beyond our understanding and I am going to be one of those sisters and brothers because I am determined to live for the Lord. I am talking all kinds of blessings, growth in all aspects of our lives and this is truly what the Lord wants us to have.
We have to get right with Jesus before it is ever lasting too late. We need to speak the truth to all those that we meet. We have to understand that the time is coming and we need to be prepared. My pastor is always saying how a child of God should always be caught looking up into the sky above us looking for the return of the Lord…in other words we should be in anticipation of His return and ready for His return!
So again my question to you is …..Are you ready? Are you building your relationship with the Lord? Are you storing your treasures in Jesus? Are you placing your cares upon the Lord? Are you walking around in unspeakable joy in the Lord? If you are not….it is not too late…step into the marvelous light of the Lord and know that He will keep you in all things! AMEN!! Blessed is the name of the Lord – Most High!
Until tomorrow….remember you can change the way your life is going as long as you change your thinking to accept the will of God in your life!
Love your sister in Christ,
Sister Alissa Lynne
Isaiah 61:1-3 1The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound; 2To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn; 3To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.
Praise the Lord! For those of you that listened in or have listened via archive to the Living Victorious Show know that we received a word from the Lord and it was truly a blessed show for me at least. (You can listen to the show at www.talkshoe.com/tc/13097 - it is dated for 10/27/08) I am thankful to the Lord for His word last night as I truly needed to hear it.
Prophet Mohr spoke on the blessings of the Lord when we are obedient in Him, when we do as the Lord says how the Lord blesses His people in abundance. It was truly what I needed to hear. I needed to be reminded about being obedient to God in all things, not just the things I want to be “good” in. So as Prophet Mohr delivered the word, it was just confirmation of what else I needed to do in our finances and He (God) really slapped my hands, but yet it was well needed and I truly thank God for that word and direction for me. I do not know if anyone else needed to hear that but I did. As I teach the children on Saturdays, Obey the word of God, so it is my turn to obey the word of God and His direction for my life. I have turned it all over to Jesus and repented for not listening to Him and His direction before now.
After Prophet gave His word, the floor was opened to all those that wanted prayer. Our dear sister called in and received a word from the Lord that brought joy to my heart and joy. (Listen to the show to hear what Jesus had for her) I was overjoyed in that word for her. Yet as I listened to him speak on more people’s lives, I was leery of asking for prayer.
I have always had “issues” with those that claim to have a word from the Lord for you. I have had people say things to me before that means nothing to me so I am very leery of those that are giving a specific word from the Lord. I have also been “afraid” of getting a word for fear that it would be something that I did not want to hear. I was afraid of being “exposed” so to speak. Well praise the Lord, in my growth in Him, I am no longer afraid.
I learned in my walk with the Lord that anyone that says to me…”the Lord said to tell you blah, blah, blah – does this make sense to you?” I know that they may not be sent by the Lord to tell me anything. Only once did it make sense to me when someone said that, but yet I was still not sure it was from the Lord. I have also learned that you know if it is from the Lord or not. Jesus makes sure you know.
For example, when I went to Minister Merv’s home church two years ago for Easter break and was at his church, a prophetess was there speaking into people’s lives. I was leery, very leery as I was not ready to receive anything from a prophetess. She was different to me, she did not do what I had seen before, she did not call people up for prayer and started laying hands on those that come up for prayer. She called people out of the audience that she had a word for. Of course she called me out, I knew before she did that she would. She stood about 50 feet away from me but the presence of the Lord was there and she spoke on my life about being a worker of miracles and going forth in the ministry that He had for me. (At that time I was not being obedient to what He wanted me to do.) I was relieved as I was not embarrassed in front of a bunch of people, but I was blessed by the Lord with a word from Him. Henceforth it was the confirmation that I needed for WL4J and thankful to the Lord for more of His direction in this manner.
I started talking to Minister Merv about this and reading my word. I think the Lord did this for me with her because she never once touched me. It was something to see as I could feel the Holy Spirit moving in me and she never laid a hand on me. You know sometimes the enemy plays tricks on you and you will think later that they “pushed” you down on the ground…well that is not the case with this woman of God. She does not even touch those that she speaks on and on this particular day…the only people she touched was the children. I had to change my thoughts on those that speak things on people’s lives – all of them are not full of it. (This is what I thought prior to this day)
The next time someone spoke on my life was when I went up for prayer. The Elder was at my home church and he spoke a powerful word of God, the praise was going up and the Holy Spirit was heavy in the atmosphere, it was truly a blessed service. It was also the service that I had this awesome experience of praise and I always wanted to “repeat”. It was during one of our church services outside of Sunday services (I forget for what) I do remember that this Elder was from Cleveland and if I ever get the chance, I will visit his church.
I stood in line and waited for prayer. As I stood in line, the Lord was preparing me to receive a specific word from Him. I was nervous, which was my first sign that it was meant for me to be in that line. I could feel the urging of the Holy Spirit moving on me and making me stay in line. Finally I am there and the anointing of the Holy Spirit on the man of God was so strong that he went to touch me to pray and down I went. He prayed over me as I laid there on the floor, telling me to praise the Lord. After some time, as I was coming “back to myself”, he instructed the Elders to bring me to him. He told me that God wanted me to praise Him and let it go…praise Him with all that I had for He has blessings for me, that there is increase all around me and all I have to do is praise Him and accept the increase. Hummmm as I think about it…I am so ready to shout for God is so good to me.
Well then, the Lord had my hubby speak things into my life too. Oh the blessing of the Lord in this is awesome. I wrote not too long ago about how Minister Merv saw a door that I was to walk through and after I walked through it, I had to praise the Lord. Minister Merv saw the windows of heaven opening up and pouring His blessings out on me. There was a sun which to me meant a new day in the Lord, He has me walking into a new day with Him, a new opportunity in Him.
Yet, the Lord had yet another word for me….last night I requested prayer for Minister Merv, my son, and me, for WL4J and Living Victorious Ministries. It never hurts to ask for prayer, but I was not going to ask for prayer as I knew in my heart that I had received a word from the Lord in the message from Prophet Mohr. I knew that I had to turn my finances completely over to the Lord by being a good steward and by paying my tithes to the church – without worry that I will be missing out on something. BUT GOD….
God had another word for me last night…it really amazes me how awesome the Lord is.
Prophet Mohr started to pray but before he could go into the “prayer”, he said to me that he saw a Mantle of Praise with me, that it was to come forth from me that he saw me singing prophetically, and teaching. He spoke about our children and the Lord using them in a supernatural way, as I pray for them (mind you, I asked for prayer for my CHILD – not children). He spoke about the Lord using us to establish a church and its growth. He spoke on Minister Merv and his singing and his songs changing people’s lives. I felt the Holy Spirit moving in me as I began to praise Him.
When Minister Merv and I were speaking on this once we were off the call, I was blessed to have prayer with my husband as we always do, but the Lord gave more word that I knew was from Him.
Okay, I said all this to say what…for the last 2 years, I have been praying to the Lord that I would let it all go, that I would not slow down, hinder or suppress the praise that is in me. Over time it has got much better where I can tune out the world and tune into the Lord. Yet, I always feel like I am just not 100% there yet. I was there only once before and since being there I want to get back.
I felt like I am holding back in the Lord. Now mind you, I am not a quiet church girl, I go and make a joyful noise unto the Lord, yet there is a part of me that is always mindful of those around me. I want to release that last part.
I asked my husband last night what did a Mantle of Praise mean…he did his famous thing that he always does…go look it up dear. LOL When I wanted to know what a miracle worker was – he did the same thing to me. Sometimes I want a fast answer but I have to go find it myself. Yet it always works better when I do that anyhow so I am not mad at him. (My hubby) So I did my own research and came up with the verses listed at the beginning…
Isaiah 61:1-3 1The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound; 2To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn; 3To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.
I looked up what the words mean also…
Mantle is something that covers or envelops, and praise is the act of expressing approval or admiration, offering of grateful homage in words or song, as an act of worship, the state of being approved or admired.
This had me think of where I was in my praise life. I praise the Lord all the time, but as I stated I felt like I was missing something and now I know that I am. I need to have the mantle of praise with me all the time, no matter what goes on, to not allow people to make me stop praising the Lord with their comments, snide remarks, hurtful actions and things of that sort. I have to continue to strive to walk in the Spirit and not in the flesh by allowing the Lord to dwell in my heart without ceasing.
I feel so much closer to the Lord as I come to understand where I am in Him and where He is taking me. It is awesome to know that I am a chosen generation, a royal priesthood – knowing that He has selected me to do His will and His way to reach other sisters and brothers in Christ, it is an honor that I shall not take for granted and I am putting on my mantle of praise and asking the Lord to have it be completely released in me for all eternity.
It is the love of the Lord that keeps me moving in Him and it is His love that keeps me in line with His word too. I am thankful this day for the message from last night and as you can see it has me on fire even more for the Lord.
Let us continue to listen to the Lord in all things and be a blessing to those around us.
If you have time – go on and check out the show that was done and hear the words of the Lord. The show is located at www.talkshoe.com/tc/13097 may it be a blessing to you. I am looking forward to having Prophet Mohr back on Living Victorious and maybe even at an in-person venue too. God is good and may His will be done!
Well that is all for today! Praise the Lord!
Have an awesome day in the Lord and know that the Lord dwells in the praises of His people….AMEN!
God Bless,
Love your sister in Christ,
Sister Alissa Lynne
Praise the Lord! Yesterday was a day that just was full of thankful thoughts and gratefulness in the Lord. I am always thankful at all times, but yesterday it screamed at me to be thankful unto the Lord. So please be patient with me today in my writings as I just have to go there for all of you.
It started with waking up that morning, I had been up late the night before and I was feeling like I was dragging. So after I “fussed” at my hubby about getting ready for church first, I got to lay there an extra ½ hr. (He takes longer than me to get ready for church even when I curl my hair – he takes longer. LOL) I am thankful for the extra rest.
We take the neighbor’s children with us to church, yet this Sunday their mother decided to come with us. Now you have to understand this before I finish the story. Her children are 7 years old, 6 years old and 4 years old. (Girl, boy, girl) I love the kids, they are given a lot of free reign and run all over the neighborhood doing whatever they choose to do, but they are good kids at heart. They were the first ones to welcome us to the neighborhood and they are seeking attention in any manner that they can. Yet they are not alone as there are a lot of children in our neighborhood in that manner. I am thankful that I had a similar childhood, so I can relate to these children and able to have more patience with them that I ever though possible. I am thankful that my situation with my son is on a different level.
Well we go to church, it was an event just getting there, but I thank God that we made it. We went to Sunday school and I was ever so thankful to see the other Sunday School sister come down the steps…she is a blessing and we all were glad to see her. (Not just me but the kids too) It just seems that the children are a little over active this day. I am not sure what was going on with them, but man, they off the hook that morning. I think I said their names 5 times in a matter of 2 minutes. I thank God for blessing me to keep my cool with these children because I just do not know what I would have done if I was not saved.
Well then my hubby comes downstairs from Sunday School and I asked him why he was not in Sunday School, he said to me that their mom spilled her coffee on the floor in the sanctuary. NOW, being raised as I was, not only do I not bring my cell phone into church service (I leave it in my car) but I would never bring a drink into the sanctuary. Now of course this is no judgment call on her at all, or anyone else, I am just saying what I would not do. I looked at my hubby and just shook my head and laughed…thank you Jesus! Just thank you Jesus…it could have been alcohol! AMEN!!
The next thing that comes up is that the children’s mom comes down to the basement with the kids, and she actually starts talking to me and as I am listening to her, I thought…Lord is she drunk. Her words were slurring and things of that nature, along with she looked like she was ready to go to sleep. Yet she was talking so much about her life, I am listening to her. As I listened to her, I realized that she took her medication for not just her physical illness but her mental illness. So my one thought was oh my sister, let me just keep you in prayer. During service the kids were off the hook and so was she, they were just really something through service. Yet I said to God…look I am here to praise you and I am going to praise you! I am thankful because I was able to tune them out to praise the Lord for what He did for me!
After church we dropped of Minister Merv at his job and two things I noticed with my dear neighbor, she repeats herself constantly but I believe that is the effect of the drugs, second…she gave me more detail about her life and we had the same life. She was abused as a child as I was, she is married to a man who is not the nicest man alive, and has some serious issues there with her and him. As I listened to her go on about what the issues are with her, I started talking to her again about the Lord and what He has done for me. I have learned with some people, you have to talk about Jesus and only Jesus. She is one of them; I have tried other matters with her about getting where she needs to be to be a good mother to her children. Now let me say this, is she a bad mother, no she is not a bad mother, yet she is under a lot of medication so she can fall asleep at the drop of the hat and the kids have free reign to do whatever they want to do. I noticed that she is out of it a lot of times and that is yet another opportunity for the kids to do what they want to do. I am thankful that the Lord used me to minister to her in her conversations about not wanting to have sex with her husband, being in an abusive relationship with him for 20 years, for the explanation of why she smokes weed, why the kids work her nerves and her past pains in her life. I am thankful that my life was filled with the same kind of mess so that I can tell her that Jesus makes the difference and yet know what I am talking about! AMEN!
After we dropped of Minister Merv, I took the neighbors home and then my son and I went to visit my grandfather who is 82 years old. I go over his house once a week as he lives on the other side of town and with my schedule with everything – I am able to go out once a week, even though I want it to be more. (The Lord will bless me with this) As I walk in my grandfather’s house, my heart sinks…it is hard to see him in this manner. His house is dirty with garbage every where because he can not take it to the dumpster. His bathroom is dirty because he can not clean up behind himself. So I roll up my sleeves and I get busy. Of course he fusses about me cleaning, but I give him a smile and tell him that I would have it no other way. He no longer fights with me on this manner. He knows that I have a hard time with my body so I think he feels bad that I do this, but as far as I am concerned – he is my Papa and if it was not for him – my mother would not have been born and he was always there for us. After Jonathan and I were done cleaning up, we sat and watched some of the Steelers game with him, yet we talked about a few things too. I am thankful to the Lord for still having my Papa and being able to do the things that he needs done. I am thankful that I do not mind taking the garbage out and cleaning up for him because I know that it makes him feel loved and special…I thank God for the opportunity to spend with him now because I am not promised to have him forever.
After we got home from visiting my grandfather, my son went to get his friend in the neighborhood as they finished watching The Hulk, that they started the day before but did not get a chance to finish watching. During that time, the other neighborhood child came to heat up pizza that I had given to them the night before; her mom wanted me to heat it up for them. After all the kids were gone (I walked them home as it was dark) and Jonathan was in bed…I started working on the WL4J newsletter and announcement of the upcoming radio show that we are having tonight. The Lord allowed me to think about a few things and to calm my thoughts. I am thankful to the Lord because I have the means to “warm up the pizza” for my neighbor. I am thankful for the things in my home because as I dropped off the one child, they have no furniture in their home. There is an air bed and television but nothing much else. I look at my house and I am blessed!!
I started thinking about just that day, the blessings of that day for me….here they are:
I woke up yesterday in my right mind, tired but able to get out the bed and move around, I was able to curl my hair and I had a nice outfit to put on for church. I attended church and had an awesome service and I was able to enjoy a day with my son and my grandfather that brought me joy. But there is so much more to be thankful for. I spent a few hours with a woman who I could have been, I could have been her. I was her for a minute but I heard the Lord’s call on my life – I am blessed for I heard Him. I went to visit my grandfather and was able to clean his house, I was sweating afterwards, but I was able to do it. I am blessed. I have food in my refrigerator, I have money (not as much as I want but I have it) I have a place to lay my head down, I have shoes for my feet and clothes on my back. I have a job that pays well, my husband is working, and my son is healthy. My life is full of joy and peace in the Lord. Though there are times that my hubby and son are not what I thought they would be, there is tons of love for each other in my home. There is compassion for others in my home and there is nothing but love in my home. The Lord is in charge at my home. There is no fighting about going to church; there are no arguments that I spend more time at church than at home. I have a spouse who is truly saved that prays with me, prays for me, talks with me and laughs with me. We have an awesome relationship even in the bad moments. Sure my son is going through a few things right now, but yet when he said his prayers last night, he thanked the Lord for spending time with his grandfather. My son has a heart full of love for people, he is still growing and learning but the compassion that he has for others is so awesome to me. I have electricity, water, gas, heat, and all the essentials in life. I can wash our clothes, I can clean our house, and I can drive to the store. I have a car, I have things that others do not have.
As I look over my life and the things that the Lord has blessed me to go through….hummmm…yes the 10 years of molestation was a blessing, the 20 some years after that trying to “find myself” was a blessing from the Lord. This just came to me…we say that we are a survivor of things…but I think we are blessings of things. I am blessed because the Lord saved me; He kept me even when I was in my sins. He keeps me now even when I make a mistake. I look over the things that He has done for me when I was not saved…how can I doubt His direction in my life now. I know Him, I know what He has for me and yet and still, I doubt sometimes, I fall sometimes AND He is still there.
My life is a blessing to the goodness of the Lord. He has blessed me to still be here after all that I have been through. There are those that are not where I am in my life and still struggling, still not walking with the Lord, still not in their right mind, still hurting and not healing, still not walking talk in the name of Jesus. There are those that remind me that I am blessed just because I am here. I am blessed just because He is “I AM”. I am blessed because He is Alpha and Omega – the beginning and the end. I am blessed because His word goes forth and does not come back void; I am blessed for there is nothing impossible in Jesus. I am blessed because He is The GREAT I AM!! Praise the Lord for all that He has done in my life, all that He is doing right now and all that He will do for all eternity.
As I end it this today…as I look over my day yesterday…the Lord showed me how blessed in Him I really am and how I need to be thankful unto the Lord for all that He is doing in me. I am thankful to the Lord for keeping me and for doing all that He has done. I am thankful to the Lord for the pain and hurt for it shows me the love of Him in my life, it shows me His grace and mercy, it has made me who I am in Him and I am thankful for all that He is. He has given me peace when no one else could. Let us remember that the Lord is the one who is truly blessing us in all things…nothing we do or did not do matters in that way. For He blessed us when we were not saved and He is blessing us now that we are saved, for the best blessing of it all is to see His face and hear Well Done My Good and Faithful Servant!
Have an awesome day in the Lord and know that God is with us all…be thankful today because as you look around your life, it could have been so much worse, you could have died already and went to hell for all eternity – not yet given another opportunity to live for Him and to praise Him. Stop this day and praise the Lord for the blessings that He has given you...to not wait another moment...He is so worthy of our praises...praise Him for all things! AMEN!
Praise the Lord for the blessings today and every day!
Love your sister in Christ,
Sister Alissa Lynne
 Well Praise the Lord!! Pizza night with the Saturday Kids Fellowship is over! Yahoo!!! I am so tired but the children were pretty good. Some of them got a little wild but that mother in me kicked in and got them straight. LOL
It was a great success as I met some of the parents of some of the kids. It was nice to talk about what we at WL4J do and what we have to offer people. It was nice to talk with more neighbors.
I am looking forward to talking to the adults on a more personal basis as I just love one on one conversation more than anything.
My honesty for today is that I cannot believe that I am the one with the kids coming by the house and being a mentor with them. They did not understand why I would not let them watch videos in my house. I had to explain to the about the music and why we do not do it. They respected it, even though I let them watch one video so they could show me how to dance.
I was surprised that the girls did not show up, the older girls…teenagers. I am not sure where some of them were but there were just enough kids for me to handle. I thank God for that! He truly blessed me in that manner. I am thankful to the Lord for His direction.
I do better with the older ones than I thought I would – I love dealing with the younger ones, the ones who are under the age of five. I thought they were the easiest ones to deal with tonight. The others were something else. Yet it was a learning experience. It made me appreciate my son more and it made me appreciate my hubby more too.
I am thankful that the night was a good night – I am tired now though. Well with all that little bit said…I have enclosed pictures of our night of the kids that I have permission to post their pictures. There were other children here but I do not have permission to take their picture yet.
Praise the Lord and now off to do some more stuff!
Love you in the name of Jesus,
Have an awesome day at church if you worship on Sundays!
God Bless!
Love your sister in Christ,
Sister Alissa Lynne
Click here to see the pictures)
 Praise the Lord! As I approach the anniversary of my mother’s death (11/16), my mind goes there a little more than before. She went on in 2005, and I think the first two years was just a “numbing” kind of period, where I find that now after her being gone for almost 3 years, I miss her more.
I look over my life since she has left and man do I wish she was here to see all of this. I know some people say that she can “see” what is going on with me now. I do not know if that is true or not, and it is not really my concern if it is or not, but what I do know is that I miss her. It is not a crying miss…even though I have my moments; it is the "I want to tell my mom" miss.
It has been stronger since Minister Merv and I got married, as I would have liked for her to have met him. When we were engaged, since it was my 3rd hubby…there was no fan fare, as I did not want it, but I missed my mom because she would have made it extra special as she always did. As I struggle with the issues with my son and his behavior, I know she had some of the same issues with my brother growing up and would have been calling her for advice. As my youngest sister was going through her pregnancy a year ago, it would have been nice to have my mom there to deal with her instead of us trying to do so.
Sometimes I find that I get upset that she is gone because of all that she is missing with her children and her grandchildren. My nephew is turning 13 years old on Saturday and the last time any of us spent any real time with her before her death was on his birthday 3 years ago. We have a picture of her on that day and even looking at that picture, she looked tired. I know why the Lord let her go on as that is not the issue. When my mind thinks about why she is no longer here, I know that God did it to save her pain. I know that He made the “right choice” as He always does. Yet and still…the missing her is not gone, the longing to feel her hug me is not gone.
You have to understand that it is amazing to me that I miss her so much. Sure, she is my mom, but our relationship was not the best mother and daughter relationship. She suffered from mental illnesses, she suffered from low self esteem, she was a child of abuse, a woman of abuse and she had such a strong hold on my life for so long. I was afraid of her growing up, yet as I got older, the more defiant I got. Needless to say…my early adult life was not the greatest with her.
So looking back on it, just when things were getting better with us, she was gone. I was maturing as a woman and I really just was coming to know who I was. I was ready to face some issues of our past, as she was ready somewhat too. I had held a lot of anger for her in my heart prior to that stage in my life for choosing a man over me, for always choosing a man over her children. I was angry at her for that. She never did see that she choose men over her children, yet I forgave her before she went on.
I get sad when I think of the pain and hurt that she endured her entire life and though she said she was a Christian woman, I watched her live a life of pain and hurt until her finale moment here on earth. She was never really happy unless it came to her grandchildren. Her grandchildren could light up her entire face, heart, and spirit, they made her so joyous.
I remember the day I was called that I could go pick up Jonathan. He was born in Jackson, Mississippi and we were waiting for the interstate compact to be complete before we went to pick him up. Right before I got the call, I had yelled at her after she yelled at me. We got into a huge argument and to be honest I do not know why. She was staying with me at the time, hiding out from her husband. (At that time in her marriage, it was so rocky because she was getting sicker by the day, and he was getting wilder by the minute – a whole other blog) Knowing us, it was probably because of something she said about me not being happy or something of that affect, I do remember being extremely angry when I answered that call. After I got the call, I went upstairs to the spare room to tell her that I can go get him. I apologized to her for fighting with her and she gave me this hug that was so awesome. It was just touching.
There is really nothing like a hug from your mom…a real hug. Some of us have never experienced it but those of us that have, know what I mean. The last hug that I got from my mom was what I will call “my little girl mode”. It was in September, 2005 – she was at my house yet again, getting away from her husband, and I was going through the emotional rollercoaster of separation from my 2nd hubby…I think I had spoken to him and just was heartbroken that he was acting like a jerk. LOL She was sitting on my bed and I laid my head in her lap and she just rubbed my back, when I sat up, she hugged me so tight and told me how much she loved me and how proud she was of me. (I just get teary eyed thinking about it) It was the last time we spent any time alone.
I look over my life and see so many similar life situations between her life and my life. I see the abuse, the pain, the hurt and the loss that we both suffered. I inherited a lot of her genes and out of all her children; I look like her the most. All her illnesses that ended up killing her, I have some of them but one. All those insecurities that she had, she passed on to me in my environment of growing up. All those things that were so hard for me to see in her, I see in myself.
It had me starting to wonder, am I her? Am I going to be like her? She left here miserable and just so unhappy. She played the game with all those that did not know her well as she wore that mask every single day. She was insecure in whom she was it was truly hard to know who she really was from time to time. She only allowed us to see what she wanted us to see. It is something as my younger sister told me once the same thing about myself.
I listen to the voices in my head screaming at me that I am just like her, that I am going to end up just like her and that I will always be just like her. We were the same.....but are we really the same?
I started praying about it and seeking the Lord’s direction. It bothered me that I did not know if I was different than her, if my life was going to be like hers.
God is awesome because the word says in Matthew 7:7-8 7Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: 8For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened. Thank you Jesus for hearing me and answering, as He showed me His lineup of my life and the things I saw in her.
I used to be so much like my mother that we could not get along because of it; I used to be so much like her that I did not even like myself. The Lord reminded me that I am made in His image and that He loved me just as I am…if I wanted to not be like my mother, I needed to love myself as He loves me. This was the major difference in my mother and me. I can have a lot of her traits as she was my mother and you are your environment. Yet, I am my own person, my own woman, my own mother, and my own wife. I do not have to be unhappy in my life. I can look to the Lord for all things.
As my mother’s daughter, I can look back and see her struggles a lot clearer now that I am walking in the Lord. She did what so many of us do; we accept defeat and think that is all we can do. We say…okay I have been through this, I have been through that and this is what my life is…let me just accept that I am going to be this way for the rest of my life. Well that is a lie from the pit of hell and I wish my mom was here today so I could tell her. My mom died unhappy in her life. She felt she made all the wrong decisions, even the man she thought was her knight in shining armor was not so. I do not know where my mom went, if it was heaven or hell….I pray that I see her again and can get a mommy hug from her…Lord willing but the Lord reminded me that I am to stand taller than ever before. I do not have to accept the life that the world is trying to make me think I have to have.
I remember one day after crying my eyes out that I looked in the mirror and for about 2 minutes I saw this beautiful, intelligent and loving woman…I saw myself as Jesus did. I do not know if you have ever experienced that but it is awesome. It was then that I realized that I do not have to accept less in this life because the world says this is how it is going to be. The Lord sent me a husband that is the biggest dreamer on the planet earth…I think his dreams are even bigger than Joseph…well at least they sometimes sound just as outrageous to me as Joseph’s dreams did to his family. When I can not stand to hear another “dream” of Merv’s – I tell him that he is reminding me of Joseph. LOL (Hey I am not perfect – I have moments too) Yet it reminds me of yet again…how the world wants us to think we can not have it, how we have to accept what the world give us.
BUT GOD….my Jesus said I do not have to accept that…I can accept what He has given me, what He has for me. I keep in my mind when I get to the moments when I feel like I have to accept what the world is trying to give me the story that Sister Valerie posted once about the Room of Blessings that we missed out on because we did not trust God enough to deliver them to us. It is really something as I look over my life and my mom’s life.
I am happier than I have ever been and I know there is more happiness to come. Sure the enemy is trying to tear me down but Jesus is truly here to stop all of that, He has given me power and I have accepted it when I accepted Him. One thing my husband is always saying…we do not truly know the power of the Holy Spirit that is dwelling in us. It is so true…when we rely on Jesus we do not have to have an unhappy life – we can live life more abundantly in Jesus every single day!
So what that I look like my mom, that I have the same illnesses that she did. So what that my life mirrors hers in a lot of ways, I am not defeat and I am not going to walk this life being unhappy in this life…why because I have Jesus and He said that I do not have to do so. I trust in the Lord and I know that He always delivers me out of the mess of this world for I once walked in darkness but now I am walking in His marvelous light….Praise the Lord for all that He has done for me.
Please lift up my family as we are drawling closer to the anniversary of the death of my mom. She was admitted to the hospital on November 5, 2005 to never come out of it again. I may not know if I will see her ever again, but I do know that God has blessed me to have her when I did and He has blessed me to know that He is with me now and forever! God is good to us and I know that in all things He will keep me! AMEN!
John 10:9-11 9I am the door: by me if any man enter in, he shall be saved, and shall go in and out, and find pasture. 10The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. 11I am the good shepherd: the good shepherd giveth his life for the sheep.
1 Peter 2:9 But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light;
Until tomorrow,
Love your sister in Christ,
Sister Alissa Lynne
2 Corinthians 5:7-10 7(For we walk by faith, not by sight:) 8We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord. 9Wherefore we labour, that, whether present or absent, we may be accepted of him. 10For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ; that every one may receive the things done in his body, according to that he hath done, whether it be good or bad.
Praise the Lord! I was responding back to a sister’s email and it hit me again - right in the middle of my mind – Just Do It – Obey!
One of the lessons this past month with the children at Sunday school and Saturday Fellowship is – Obey. It was a wonderful lesson for the children as when I see them cutting up…I remind them how we are to obey. They stop and listen from that moment on, I think I need to start the Saturday Fellowships out with that work…Today we are going to obey children! LOL I wonder if that is going to work! LOL
Yet I find myself saying that more and more…”Just do it…Obey.” It is something how we have to remind ourselves of this. We will get in the comfort of our own being and not want to move past that, most times it is fear that keeps us from doing it.
I know for myself, it is fear, I guess I can not say everyone else is, but it is the fear within me that keeps me from “Just Doing It & Obeying”. It is not that I can not obey the word of God, sure love my neighbors and try my best not to make smart comments when they leave my house. (Sometimes I think my neighbors think we are a bank or baby sitting service) Yet I am learning and growing with that too.
The hardest part for me is stepping out in a new adventure and moving with it. God showed me Women Living 4 Jesus and as we move closer to things, I get a little nervous. For example, we are an Association – a legal Association, yet we are not tax exempt yet. We have been working on things trying to get the rest of our information together so that we can apply to be tax exempt via the 501 (c) standards. It is a time consuming job to get this together, yet I love it, but then here comes the doubting and fear.
I started to be proactive last night and while I was doing this, I thought about looking up some grants to see what was out there. My first thought was WOW, there are a lot of grants…after going through them, I noticed WOW there are not a lot of grants for us to apply for. The grants were requesting things that we can not do, so my mood started to sink. I was looking at the fact that maybe this is not what we should be doing. Maybe we should just continue with the fellowship and leave the social aspect out of it.
Praise the Lord as He reminded me to “Just Do It – Obey” The fellowship was not the only aspect of WL4J that He gave me, but the social aspect that we have already started. As I sat there, I heard Sister Brandi’s words ringing in my ears…Sister Alissa, we can’t do it all at once, one thing at a time in the Lord….Sister Alissa, you can’t do this alone, Sister Alissa WE can do this and it will come together in the Lord. (Smile) She is right and I thank God for her.
We have done so much already for others and we have a long way to go. I was getting my hugs from my hubby and he started praying for me, I think he started praying because I was sounding negative about things. I want to quit my job now and get busy as there is so much that lies ahead of the WL4J Board of Directors, yet it is not time yet. I thank God for a supporting husband who knows that this is what we are to do and is supportive in that manner.
It was in this thought that I started to hear in my head – Just Do It – Obey even more this morning. I told my dear sister something that I had just told myself, if it glorifies the Lord…just do it – He will bless it. I think sometimes we all, well let me speak for me…I think too much and do not do enough “Walk by Faith”. I have jumped into a new adventure in the Lord – and I am going to keep moving in the Lord – ignoring the mess of the enemy and standing on the promises of Jesus.
He has a direction for my life and I am moving forward with it. Praise the Lord for all that He is doing in my heart! AMEN!!
Have a blessed and awesome day!
Love your sister in Christ,
Sister Alissa Lynne
Praise the Lord…I am not even sure what to write today as there is so much on my mind. The Lord is blessing me to be the child of God that He has called me to be. Yet and still there are days, even I doubt and just be me! I am thankful to the Lord for the mighty blessings that He has given me in my life.
I am thankful to the Lord as we move forward in the 501 (c) status, I am thankful that the Lord is blessing us. I did not realize until the other day that we – Women Living 4 Jesus is already an organization, we are a legal association. I was so thankful to the Lord for that step to be gone and now we are headed onward to getting our 501 (c) status. The Lord has blessed us with the finances to file and for that I am grateful to the Lord and to the giver. God is blessing us to fulfill His vision for WL4J. Please lift up the Board of Directors as we move forward in the vision of the Lord!
I was riding into work this morning, listening to Shekinah Glory Ministries – Live CD disc one – the song – Higher. I started thinking about this Saturday as the Pizza party at my house for the neighborhood kids and the plans for that. I know that there will be a lot of kids at the house and they will be there from about 4 PM to 8 PM. There will be all ages in the house and I was trying to figure out what we can do with them while they are there. Since the age group is from 4 years old to 16/17 years old, I wanted to make sure I had things lined up for them to do.
As I was sitting there, I knew that I wanted to gather all the kids together as we wait for the pizza to be delivered to give them a word of encouragement. As I was driving, I could see me standing before the kids and speaking. I was telling them that from the age of 6 years old to the age of 16 years old, that I was mistreated but yet I stand before them healed in the Lord. I was talking with the kids and it was a chance to open things up to them and to allow them to express themselves in an open forum. I really want to talk to the children about standing in the Lord and knowing God at a young age, what knowing Jesus can do for their lives. What standing in His name means, and why Minister Merv and I are here for them and opening our home and heart to all the children of our neighborhood. I am not sure if I can reach them or not, but yet and still, I have to try and do what I know is right. If someone would have told me that I would be doing this with the neighborhood kids. Of course there will be some parents who will be there…give away free food and it brings a lot of people to the door. It is one of the reasons why we will eventually have an outreach for the entire neighborhood, giving away food.
Yet as I was thinking about what to say to them and what extent do I tell them of my life, I started looking over my life yet again…just thankful to the Lord for what He has done for me. I see how the enemy meant to destroy me repeatedly yet the Lord has saved me from death so many times that I can not even count them all. I know that God has saved me on occasions that I had no idea that He did. Sometimes I just stop and think about the blessings of the day before I am so grateful for it all.
I sit and do what I feel is right in my life and job, sometimes I wonder what the Lord has in store for me and sometimes I wonder if I will ever have a different life than I do now. I am at work and I know that my boss could come up to me at any minute and tell me that I no longer have a job that I have to clean out my desk. Yet and still, I know that God is able to keep me in all circumstances and it is truly the Lord who directs my life.
I do not have to wonder what will happen and if things will be taken away from me anymore, because the more I move closer to the Lord, the more secure in Him I get. When we get closer to the Lord, the enemy starts to really attack us and it is clear that to us to stay even closer to the Lord so that we will have peace in our lives. It is only through the Lord that we receive peace and joy even when things are not going according to the way “we” thought they should. When our flesh kicks up, we have to kick it back down. We have to know that God is keeping us.
My Truth today… I am just thankful today to be alive and in my right mind. Things are not always as I want them to be, I would love for a few things to be different in my life right now, such as my son’s behavior changed for the good, my husband making more money so I can be a stay at home mom and doing the work that lays ahead of me, yet I am still happy and content in my life and my mind for I know that all things will come together in time according to His vision.
The enemy is trying to get me to stray from the Lord, he is coming at me from all angles BUT I am standing in the word of the Lord. I am going to sing the praises of the Lord and it does not matter who joins me and who does not join me. The enemy thinks he has me defeated but the Lord has blessed me. Let us remember to keep ourselves surrounded by the things of the Lord at all times so that we do not fall into the traps and thinking of the enemy. The Lord has blessed me and I am not going to allow this week to be a trying week in the Lord…this is a week of the Lord and I shall continue to praise the Lord for all things in my life.
I am doing the dance right now at my desk in my spirit…I am praising the Lord for all that He has done and all that He will do. I am praising the Lord for He is truly a blessing to me and keeping me this day for His purpose.
I shall leave you today with a scripture that is burning on me this day….
Do not let the enemy destroy your trust, your belief, and your faith in the Lord for one second for you are predestined to be a child of the Lord….He selected you….
Ephesians 1:3-14 3Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who hath blessed us with all spiritual blessings in heavenly places in Christ:
4According as he hath chosen us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before him in love:
5Having predestinated us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to himself, according to the good pleasure of his will,
6To the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved.
7In whom we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of his grace;
8Wherein he hath abounded toward us in all wisdom and prudence;
9Having made known unto us the mystery of his will, according to his good pleasure which he hath purposed in himself:
10That in the dispensation of the fulness of times he might gather together in one all things in Christ, both which are in heaven, and which are on earth; even in him:
11In whom also we have obtained an inheritance, being predestinated according to the purpose of him who worketh all things after the counsel of his own will:
12That we should be to the praise of his glory, who first trusted in Christ.
13In whom ye also trusted, after that ye heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation: in whom also after that ye believed, ye were sealed with that holy Spirit of promise,
14Which is the earnest of our inheritance until the redemption of the purchased possession, unto the praise of his glory.
Until tomorrow,
Love your sister in Christ,
Sister Alissa Lynne
Songs provided by Shekinah Glory - Live CD 1 - Higher and Higher Reprise
Praise the Lord for this day! The enemy is trying to attack me via my son. Yet I have the victory. The enemy thinks by getting my son to follow some traits of him will have me abandon my son, have me not trusting my son, have me not believing that God will not change my son – yet the enemy is wrong,
I have noticed the closer I get to the Lord, the more my son cuts up. I started blaming myself, am I doing too much other stuff and not focused on him enough. Am I making my son do things for attention? Being an adoptive mother, I beat myself up all the time about things. I wonder if I am a good enough mother, if I am doing the right thing. I question every single decision that I make. I even question my adopting him, if it was in his best interest to be with me with all the mess my life was before. I wonder if the decisions that I have made in my life have hurt him in any ways. I wonder so much sometimes…yet the Lord has blessed me with such awesome peace when I turn to Him for direction.
It is awesome to know the Lord and to know that God is truly moving on my life. I received a phone call this afternoon about my son receiving in-house school suspension because of his behavior and disrespect! I was so outdone AT FIRST about the disrespecting of others. I was angry beyond belief. As I was talking to the Head Teacher, I was just getting upset as I heard what he was doing in school. He has received detention that I was NOT aware of and he made sure that I did not receive the paper work. Oh my last year was bad but this year is worse than last year…I thought Lord what am I going to do. As I was sitting at home alone as Minister Merv went to work, I was sitting here thinking about my son and our walk together. My son is a good kid, he is really compassionate always looking out for the little guy, the underprivileged, always doing things to help others but there is something about school that he just does not get with. We have tried a thousand and one things with him already, yet nothing is working.
I was crying to the Lord, yet again praying for my son. I say to the Lord…we pray for him, we pray about him, and we anoint him with oil and all kinds of stuff that we as Christians should do…the Lord said to me…all things are mine, all people are mine…some will believe and others will not. I thought to myself WHAT!! My son cannot be lost to the world…I will not accept that. The Lord said to me…he is not lost; he is making choices that need to be made by him. As I started to talk to my son, the Lord is talking to him and my son chooses to not listen. He knows before he goes to do something that is outside of what we taught him that he has chosen to not take the right choice. I just stood there…this is my seven year old son who is telling me that he chooses to do badly. He knows it is wrong but he chooses to do it.
At first I was so upset, but the Lord calmed me down as I looked at my son and my heart was pounding the Lord reminded me of all that he told me about my son before this time of our walk, the visions that He has shown me before of my son. So as I looked at my child…I sat down and looked him in his face so that he knew that I was talking to him. (I believe we should talk with our children not at our children) I told my son that he has to make wise choices that he has to do the right thing if he wants to have a good life. I had to listen to him talk about the other kids who are around him, he is trying to fit in and I am trying to give him the tools to be a leader. It is something how he does not even see that the Lord is working in him to be a leader. No matter what my son does whether it is good or bad…the other children follow it. They follow him no matter what, so he is a leader…yet he thinks he is a follower. As I listened to my seven year old son…the Lord gave me words to minister to my son. Who would have thought that as a mother I would minister to my son…I thought I would just do my mommy role. Yet the Lord said to me that there is a fight going in him just as there is a fight in us. The Lord told me that He has a call for my son and my son has to go through listening to Him just as I had to learn to do it too. I have to do as a parent and discipline as I should but I cannot go around beating myself up because of the choices that my son makes.
The Lord is truly showing me that my son is a child of God. My son has said that he is a Christian and though he has not given his life (yet – he is scared of the baptism – pray for him), the Lord has called Him. My son tells me that he is afraid of the devil and sometimes he feels like there are “voices” telling him to do the bad things. I started praying for my son at this moment even more as we were talking. The enemy is attacking my child and though he knows to make the right choice – he is choosing to make the wrong choices.
I pray for my son yet I know that the Lord is dealing with him in all of this as I watch his face and his reaction to what I was saying to him. I never thought I would have these conversations with my seven year old son. Yet, I am.
I started thinking today that it is not just adults who are fighting for their lives, but our children too. My job as a mother is to continue to direct my job as a mother, directing, loving, nurturing him…yet the most important part is to live my life according to the word of God in front of him. I know that the Lord will bring the victory to pass…I just have to remain on the path that the Lord has for me.
I am learning that I cannot make my child do the right thing, I can only encourage him to do so, the bottom line is the choice is up to Him…but I am going to do all that I can to make sure that my son makes the right choices and does what the Lord has called him to be. It is something how we never look at our children in the spiritual realm but yet they are no different than we are.
The enemy thinks he has won…but he has not won a thing…he will still yet be defeated! AMEN!
Have an awesome and blessed day in the Lord today and everyday!
Love your sister in Christ,
Sister Alissa Lynne
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